Blogging happens so rarely now. I’m trying to get myself to a place where I don’t beat myself up about it; where I recognize there are seasons for everything and maybe this just isn’t a blogging season anymore, and that’s okay. BUT regardless of how little I write now- blogging on birthdays is a must. Although now that I say that- did I forget to blog on Seth’s birthday? Shoot.
It’s Ivy’s birthday today. She’s six now. SIX. If you had told me six years ago how quickly this day would come, I probably wouldn’t have believed you. The days of having all four kids in school seemed like a fantasy that was an eternity away. The fantasy became reality far quicker than I thought, and it turned out not to be a fantasy at all. Sure, I love my quiet days at home, but I really do miss the kids. Snow days are as exciting for me as for them- I’m so happy when I get them home with me. I decided yesterday, while pouring through old pictures and videos of the kids when they were smaller, that if I could, I really would freeze time right now, and keep them just how they are. Sometimes I think I’m just too sentimental to be a mother, even though if you ask my family (especially my dad), they’ll probably say I’m not sentimental at all. I guess I’m only sentimental when it comes to my kids. I want to hold them tight and stay with them forever and I feel time slipping through my fingers like fine sand and it’s upsetting!! All that being said, they’re turning into the best little people I know, and I’m so extremely proud of who they are, and I truly am excited to see what they turn out to be, so I guess it will be okay, right?
Ivy, though. Six!
She’s so excited to be six. She’s such a grown-up, responsible, and independent child. If you ask her to do something (like put the dog out, or sweep the floor, or put her laundry away) she will almost always reply “sure, Mom” and get right to it without complaint. She helps her brothers when they need help too- especially Oliver, who doesn’t have that same independent spirit. She’s made him breakfast on more than one occasion because he still lacks the confidence to pour himself his own bowl of cereal.
She loves her family so wholeheartedly. Her and Oliver had a rough weekend of too many nit-picky fights- they were just in a funk (which is not super unusual for those two). When I tucked her into bed she just cried about how they weren’t getting along and she was so upset about it. We tried to make a plan about how they could get along better, including giving space where space is needed, and having more patience with him. She discussed it so thoroughly with me, and I know she took my suggestions to heart. She loves being with her brothers and playing lego with them, or having wrestling matches, or making little movie trailers with Ben on his phone. We had the laziest, most-wonderful Christmas break together, just all hanging out at home together, but boy that girl missed those boys when they went back to school that first day without her.
As much as she loves playing with her brothers, she’s also just the best at independent play. She always finds something to do to keep herself busy when we’re at home alone together. She wants to be a teacher when she grows up right now and lately I’ll find her sitting in her neatly made bed holding a book with one hand (like teachers do!) and “reading” to a bunch of toys sitting in a row at the end of the bed. She likes to look at Pinterest and find a little craft to make on her own, or play with all her Shopkins for hours.
She’s always up for an adventure, and oh I love her for that. Maybe it’s because she has three older brothers that she’s usually trying to keep up with, but I think she’d probably be just as brave without them- her personality is so big and so up for anything.
She is truly a gift to us all, with her happy heart that’s always so very quick to forgive. She is generous with her love and her cuddles. Whenever we say I love you, she always replies “I love you more!”, to which I always reply, no, you don’t- you’ll see one day when you have your own kids! She does love us a lot though, you can almost feel it in a tangible way. Neil was showing her a little slideshow that he made her for her birthday, and she was just resting her head on his shoulder, her eyes looking soft and almost a little misty, kissing and hugging Neil from time to time. She told me later it made her so happy she almost cried. She’s so quick to compliment or encourage all of us- I just love that about her. She’ll often comment on what I’m wearing or how nice my makeup looks (on those rare occasions I put it on!). If her brothers try something she’ll tell them they did a great job. She is just a light in this house, and we are all so lucky to know her.
Happy sixth birthday my girl. I just don’t even know what I’d do without you. I love you so very very much.